Oh, well. I’m sorry for readers who are not interested in beauty, this blog is basically about everything. So yeah. Let’s go to my OPI colors!

I’m so excited. I’m kinda new with this whole OPI collecting thing. I used to just wear Rimmel 60 Seconds (my favorite is 519 Desert Beauty), but when I found out that OPI is actually a lot cheaper if you compare the price with how much product you get, I’VE DECIDED TO SWITCH TO COLLECTING OPI INSTEAD.

I only have two so far, I’m predicting that I’ll buy more and more, but it seems that the two that I already have are more than enough because they’re so gorgeous!!! The first one that I have is a cult favorite, Melon of Troy.

Wait. Is it just me or did I see two metal balls inside Melon of Troy?

OMG I’M NOT KIDDING THERE ARE TWO METAL BALLS INSIDE THE BOTTLE! Does anybody know what it’s for? Does anybody else have them?

Anyways. The color is actually more shimmery than the one in picture, but it’s good enough. It’s a beautiful coral-pink color, perfect for summer.

NEXT!

It’s called Chocolate Shakespeare.

This was the very first OPI that I bought. It actually has a hint of red in it, unlike the picture. It looks like chocolate milk! So yeah, I don’t know but I’m thinking that maybe they made the name as a pun.. Chocolate Shakespeare.. Chocolate Shakes.. Chocolate Shake! RIGHT! I’m a genius.

So that’s all y’all, I’ll talk to you guys later, bye.

The prices range from $9-10, and I guess that’s a bit high for bath care. Then again many people buy from Bath & Body Works, and the prices are generally similar anyway so I don’t see why you can’t spend it on Victoria’s Secret ones instead.

For me, personally, I feel that Love Spell is my signature scent. Whenever somebody else uses it, my boyfriend just automatically says that she smells like me. My friends do the same. And honestly, I hear mixed reviews for Love Spell – some say it’s authentic and fresh, others think that it’s cheap-smelling and generic. But I’ll give an easy five-star on this one. In my opinion, Victoria’s Secret Garden Collection give out unique fragrances that you don’t always find. I mean, really, you can find many high-end fragrances that have similar scents; musky, sandalwood-y, flowery, citrusy.. but Love Spell? Pfft. It’s hard to find a similar one. It really is.

Anyway. So. FIVE STARS for Love Spell!

Ashihara Hinako

The first work that I’ve read from her is called SOS, and I fell in love with the artwork and stories instantly. The stories she makes are rather serious, and very realistic, but at the same time they have funny, lightweight bits in it. The second story in that book is called Organ, and I laughed, and cried, and thought about the story for some time.. she is one wonderful mangaka. I don’t think she’s making any new works as of now, though. Sad.. Please write another story!

Best work: I can’t pick any!! They’re all so good. *_* But okay, Chouchou Kumo. No, SOS. No, Pinky Promise. No, Konbini S! NO THEY’RE ALL GOOD!!

Usami Maki

Again, she makes mangas of roughly the same genre as Ashihara Hinako. Serious, but funny at the same time. Only I have to say I like Usami Maki’s artwork better. *grins* But they’re both really good, and I love both of them equally. I love every single Usami Maki’s work. I don’t think there’s any of them that I dislike. I know that she’s not making any new ones as of now, but I haven’t finished reading Kokoro Botan, and so that’s the manga that I’m currently reading now.

Best work: Haruyuki Bus, hands down! Woot! The best manga ever. And maybe Sakura Rhythm. But no, Haruyuki Bus is the best.

Kouichi Kaede

Mm, there’s not much to say about her because I’m relatively new to her work, and besides I’ve never read any of her previous works before. I’m currently reading Love So Life, and I have to say, it’s an amazing manga. Very cute as well. I guess her genre is different from Ashihara Hinako and Usami Maki, since Love So Life is a very light-read manga, and it gives you this warm fuzzy feeling afterwards, and it’s very, very, cute. It’s about this high-school girl who babysits these twins who live with their reporter uncle (who’s so darn good looking). And the twins are just so adorable!! >.< And I’m thinking some romance will spark between the uncle and the high-school girl. Oh, and the uncle isn’t even that old. Cuties.

Best work: Err, Love So Life! (It’s the only one I’ve read so, lol)

Sakisaka Io

Yes. I’m saving the best for last, of course. Sakisaka Io is LOVE! I don’t know what else to say anymore. Strobe Edge has got to be the best manga out there. The best. The heroine is just so adorable and pure, and the hero is.. COMPLETELY HEAVENLY LOOKING IT’S NOT EVEN FUNNY. I.. I.. I don’t even know what to say! Speechless. The artwork is love. The stories are love. Everything, about Sakisaka Io, is love. I guess her genre is in between Usami-Ashihara and Kouichi. The stories aren’t as serious as Usami-Ashihara, but definitely more serious than Kouichi. I don’t know. But I guess the works are more or less like Usami Maki, but not so much either. WAIT. WHAT AM I EVEN SAYING. I don’t make sense. Anyway.

Oh, however, I don’t particularly like her old works, because her artwork was different, but her present work. Is. Love. I’m currently reading her latest work called Aoharaido and so far, it’s love. I can’t wait for Chapter 2 I just can’t!! I’m so obsessed!! I have a feeling it’s going to be even more amazing than Strobe Edge. Which is definitely hard to believe because Strobe Edge is the definition of love.

Best work: Strobe Edge, like duh! ..Or maybe Aoharaido, hmm, we’ll see.

So that’s it, you guys! I like some works by Takasuka Yue (Good Morning Call) and I’m also checking out works by Haruta Nana, so maybe I’ll review them later. Thanks for reading!

I will have Chemistry on Tuesday and Physics on Thursday. Oh, God, help me. AS Level is already killing me, I don’t even want to think about next year. #theironyofatwelfthgrader

Other than that, nothing else really happened. Except for the fact that I still feel like I’m walking on a thin string of love, wobbling, trying not to fall. (Cheesiness, but hey it’s true.) Why do I feel so much pressure? He says he gets depressed whenever I tweet strange stuff. WELL, TOO BAD, I TWEET WHAT I WANT TO TWEET. And if HE gets depressed, then I just get plain crazy. Sometimes I can’t handle the feeling of as if being used. And it’s not like I fell for some other guy – sometimes I just think that maybe he’s not the one for me, if he continues to be this way. And I’ll let him stay this way, I won’t talk him out of it because this is the way he is, I can’t change it. I have no right to. If it doesn’t work out, then I guess he’s not for me, and somebody else may love him exactly the way he is.

It’s easy to say. It’s harder to really let go.

Well, well, hello, people. I’m not depressed anymore so I thought I should post something cheerful, like.. what products I use every morning! Read on, you. Oh, but by the way, this is my Winter morning routine.

Okay, so first of all, early in the morning I wash my face with St. Ives Apricot Scrub, and I use the one in Gentle, for Dry/Sensitive Skin. I personally like the old formula better than the recent one, just because the scent used to be very minty and ‘medicine’-like. I know some people don’t like the smell of medicine but I do, especially for skincare. I get the feeling that they’ll treat my skin, somehow. *grins* So anyways. Unfortunately I’ve used the old one up and the one I have now is of course, this new one right here. That’s alright though, it’s still nice.

Next, I spray some Evian Water Spray onto my face and wipe everything off with a cotton pad. Evian is expensive – you can get one from Carrefour for half the price, and they’re same same; water and nitrogen. Or you can go to The Body Shop and get the Vitamin C spray, for double the price of Evian with added goodness to the formula. You choose. But I like to use Evian or Carrefour, depends on which one’s available near me. Anyway, I use this as a damp base to my face because nothing can work on my dry face.. when it’s dry.

Moving along, I then use this Carrot Moisture Cream from The Body Shop. This stuff, I swear.. it’s amazing. It’s from the Original line so it’s not available near me (as the one in front of my apartment is rather small), but there’s a mall in the city where they sell this baby so I’m all cool. It’s cheap, too. Retails from QR 20-30, and when it’s on sale it QR 15. It doesn’t cause breakouts to my skin which is great, of course, and has a dewy finish. Most of the time I skip the makeup and go to school with this thing on plus sunscreen and lipbalm. Awesome stuff.

I used to use Boots Revitalizing Eye Cream, but I stopped after I found this Garnier Light Eye Roll-On. It’s not because of the formula or anything, because Boots make great stuff, but I just feel that the roll-on is much more convenient to use than creams. I know, I try to get things that save time, especially for the mornings where I only have such little time before having to catch the bus. This roll-on makes my eyes feel refreshed for the day, and I bring it to school just in case my eyes get tired. I usually repeat up to three applications per use under my eyes.

Next, I use my Acnes Compact Powder (shown) in Sweetie Honey (which is.. medium beige? I think). It has SPF, which is why I use it. In the summer I skip this powder and use Neutrogena Ultra-Sheer Dry Touch Sunblock in SPF 45 instead, plus occasionally Pigeon Squalane Powder in Beige. The reason why I use Acnes is because in winter, the Neutrogena Sunscreen causes my skin to be even more drier and it starts peeling off and all sorts of horrible things. When I use Acnes, which is in powder form, my skin stays fine and protected. It has barely-there coverage, but then again to me that is a good thing because I don’t like extreme coverage. However, you can always build it up. I use the Betty Barclay powder brush to apply it since I don’t like the puff (it’s.. rough). Oh, and one other thing. The puff does not fit into the compact. I know, weird, right? But it really doesn’t. So instead you have that inconvenient green plastic compartment thing. Strange. I bought this back in my home country – you can find this in Japan. I don’t know where else to get this, I doubt if they even sell this in the United States. It’s pretty good stuff.

After that I go ahead and apply my eyeliner. Again, to be honest, usually I skip eyeliner + mascara, but it’s nice to think that I use them. My favorite eyeliner, hands down, is the Nivea Stay-On Eye Pencil (shown) in Black. I suck at makeup, and therefore I suck at using liquid eyeliner as well, so I prefer this instead of liquid form. Besides, the color is not very opaque, and very blendable. Love.

I don’t know where you get it in the United States. They don’t sell Nivea makeup in Target or Walgreens, I think. Maybe CVS?

The mascara I use is the Nivea Volume Nanodefinition (shown) in Black. You know how you’re supposed to throw away mascaras every three months, so at times I would switch this mascara to the Maybelline The Colossal. I bounce back from Nivea to Maybelline from time to time. Just when I feel like it. But hey, both are just as good as each other. And besides, they’re cheap! ..er than high-end mascaras, of course. Both definitely make my lashes look longer.

Blush time! I wish I say I use gel blush/cheek stains, but unfortunately I can’t find them like, anywhere, by my place, and therefore none of that. I usually use the Max Factor Flawless Perfection Blush (shown) in 221 Classic Pink (to be honest I use this practically every single day) as it is easier to just apply it with a brush, but I also often use the Maybelline Dream Mousse Blush in 60 Coffee Cake on formal occasions. The Max Factor one has the perfect pink shade for me, and it’s surprising because I used to use rose undertones. It blends into my skin smoothly and, like the name, flawlessly. I love it!

I apply Vaseline to my lips every Winter because my lips get ridiculously dry and therefore I revert back to the original petroleum jelly because no other lipbalms work on me. And I have like, 40 of them, so yeah, I’m allowed to say that. Ooh, except for The Body Shop Vitamin E balm, which I bring to school every day because it’s more convenient than carrying a mini tub of Vaseline everywhere. Nevertheless, at home I still use the good old Vaseline.

Okay, since I’m a lippie addict, I choose whatever lipcolor I want to use for the day from time to time. Although the top three would have to be (in no particular order): Labello Fruity Shine in Strawberry (or Pomegranate, I can’t really pick one), Maybelline Moisture Extreme in 13 Rosewood, and Revlon Moondrops in Chinaglaze Red. As you can tell, they’re all moisturizing lipcolors, and I actually prefer them more than long-wearing lipcolors just because.

Oh, and speaking about lipcolors, does anybody know dupes for YSL Fard A Levres Rouge Pur in 21 Indian Orange and 52 Rosy Coral? They’re such gorgeous colors. Drugstore brands are preferable – I don’t like to waste money on makeup – but MAC lippies are okay too. Thanks!

Alright, so that’s all you guys. My daily morning routine. It takes like.. 5 minutes. Easy peasy.

It’s only a matter of time, honey. You’ll see.

I know it’s a choice. Letting you go is a choice. But it’s not something that I can just decide in a snap. And it’s not something that I can just do, in a snap. I get depressed, believe me. It interferes with my studies, believe me. It comes into mind every once in a while, believe me. And in the end I’ve chosen to do so. It’s all for you, I’m lifting the burden for you. We’re only in high school. We both know that it won’t last. And I know very well that you believe in ‘believing’ – when you believe it, it will be so. I want to believe it. I want to believe that you and I can stay together forever, I want to believe that we can grow old together, I want to believe all of it. But you and I both know that we can’t live in a fairytale forever.

I’m sorry. I still check my phone every once in a while, just to see whether you texted or not. I’m sorry I still go on the message box on Twitter and continuously refresh the page, to see whether you wrote me a DM or not. I’m sorry I’m obsessed with you. And I still am, but I know I can go through this alone. I know you don’t love me as much as I do you, so I know you’ll get over it in no time. It’s only now that you hug me all the time, and say I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, don’t leave me, I love you, please don’t leave me – trying to reassure that you love me so much. And I know that you love me. Only you see, my love is bigger than yours. It’ll take a longer time to heal than yours. I know you’ll be fine without me. I know you will.

Now the question is, will I?

And with this I’ll cry, knowing that my summer would not be as beautiful as the year before, knowing that I wouldn’t have you by my side, knowing that there wouldn’t be any of those morning and night messages and late night phone calls. I’ll cry. But I have to move on with my life and focus on things that need to be done.

And maybe you don’t understand why I’m doing this, and maybe you’ll get angry, but when you think about it, you know it’s for the best. This way, you’re free to do anything you want. You’re free to wear any kinds of bracelets and necklaces, you’re free to go home late, because there wouldn’t be me waiting for you and being angry with you. You’re free.

Also with this I should thank you, for loving me, for caring about me, for being there when I need you most. And I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done to you, I’m sorry for everything. I feel sorry for you for being with me.

And no, I’ve never cheated on you. Ever. It was always you. I’m doing this for you. I don’t want you to know that I’ll probably cry every single night regretting the fact that I’ve let you go, because it’s for you. Because I love you.

I’m letting you free, I’m letting you fall in love with another. Consider this your birthday present from me.

You remain my best friend.

I love you.

And to be honest, looking at my previous entries, I feel like I’ve changed. Not horribly, not drastically; but I have changed. I’m not as lively anymore, not as.. vocabulary-rich (was I? I don’t know, but it feels that way ever since I decided not to take English for AS). Well, anyway, it doesn’t matter. People don’t stay the same all the time. We change and maybe it’s for a good cause.

I just ate dinner. I think I’m a go get a drink of water and wash the dishes. Be back in a second!

Okay, back. I feel like curling up, wrapped in my blanket.. but I can’t, because I’ve got Chemistry to do. What’s this, why is my life revolving around school. That’s just how it is.

Oh, and. I’m in love. :]

Well, just to let you all know that I’m back and all good! I’ll be posting a few more before I go back to Chemistry.